Unhappily Married

Oh the ripples of one night…one decision…wrong information…the lies…no help…

Learning to live happily while in a Marriage to someone I wished to flee but could not. This is my life’s challenge and it is in realizing my accountability for my own personal joy that actually makes it possible. No one has the power to make you happy or unhappy, they can certainly test your fortitude and focus on either but surely with self love, balance and good health even the most unpleasant of circumstances can be weathered. Are you following my storm, my journey, my life? In spite of many odds against me I continue forward marching, God’s little soldier for truth, decency and love. They may encamp around me but what can man do to me, God is on my side!

Next week I turn 40, it is lucky I have made my own plans for else there would be none. How isolated I have become from those who love me and whom I love. All so that I may be a Mother to my children but I do it gladly as I recall how my own mother was too busy searching through life for her calling; to fulfill her motherly duty. I will not repeat that or many other cycles from a dark family past that I have had to confront, survive and I suppose at this point in my life publicize so that it may help another young girl or a middle aged one like me… to in the words of Winston Churchill “Never Give Up.”

As women the choices we make in our career, bedroom and within our own minds impacts the lives of our children and we must therefore be WISE and where we are not seek council for the decisions we make influence the future.